So here I am, on the cusp of a major milestone in my life, and feeling as if I have little to show for my time on this planet. Well, I guess that means I can join the other several millions of people who drudge through their daily lives like drone ants gathering materials for the colony and then returning home with their booty, only to feel as if they missed out on something bigger. How boring.
I have to say in all honesty, my life hasn't been totally boring. At times extremely mundane, yes, at times nauseatingly tedious, definitely, and at times, very joyful. But my life has also been accentuated by periods of extreme pain, which can be described in a number of different ways, none of which include the word 'boring.'
In writing my life story, so far, I can't tell any crazy nymphomaniac Las Vegas stories, where I go to bed with a stranger and wake up to 3 other men in my bed and an assortment of farm animals in my room. Wasn't that a movie recently? Well, unless you count the time I was 17 years old and in Greece and I fucked this guy I just met, multiple times in multiple locations all over the islands of Ios and Santrini. But I don't think that counts because I actually ended up marrying that guy...and we're still married with 4 kids. Not very sexy.
I can't recount any lurid druggie tales, a la James Frey in A Million Little Pieces. Oh yea, I forgot, Frey can't either. I'm sorry, 3 glasses of wine a week do not an addiction make. Alas, I wish it would cause that would be a better story.
But my story does include harrowing childhood adventures of neglect and physical abuse coupled with a chronic illness and premature family deaths. The crap that bad soap operas are made of. Only, unfortunately for me, it was all too real. Holy fucking shit, given my background, how the fuck I didn't become a junkie Hell's Angel Biker Mama, I have no idea. I turned out so much better than that...I became a lawyer. LOL! Ethically dubious, but definitely not boring.
ethically dubious!!! Love it! You are NOT boring Renee!
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